Mary943’s Weblog

Love, the greatest thing, love, the worst thing, the hardest thing, the easiest thing, the right thing, the wrong thing.  “A new commandment I give unto you that you love one another just as I have loved you”.  Why?  What is it?  Why is love packaged with so many things?  Why does it have to hurt?  Is this the hardest commandment of all?   That we love one another JUST as He has loved us.  People try so hard to get us not to love them I think.  How many opportunities do you get each day to get mad?  Or, are you like me, let things slide over and over and over keeping your cool, and then all of a sudden everythings gets so out of hand,  you just blow up?  It is like people will push every button you have, as often as they can, knowing on the inside what they are doing the whole time, claiming to love you, but it seems they are secretly seeking to destroy you.  i know, I know, it is powers, principalities, not flesh and blood.  It just gets so hard sometimes.  Do you ever feel as if people are trying to tear your family apart?  These to me, are the hardest times to love people.  I want peace.  I am tired of dealing with strife and division.  I am holding on.   I am pressing through.  I am going to keep going even though I want to give up.  I want to leave but I am staying.  Help me keep my heart right Lord.  Help me to walk in love, to love them like you.  I want more than anything to have his eyes shine out through mine, for people to be able to see his light.  But then when they really test and try you, give it all they’ve got, you start to see a very ugly side that you don’t know if you can handle.  I’m not going around this mountain for 40 years.  I am tired of being defeated, Christ is in me.  I can do all things through he who strengthens me.  If he is for me, yes, I will make it.  Love, is it a challenge to you?