Sometimes we all feel lost. I can look back and easily see the things that I know are God’s work, but then too, I can also look back and remember things that fill me with doubt. I know that there are a lot of people that think we christians are stupid. I know why too. But in my heart, I know that there is more. I have been pretty close, but not as close as I want to seeing his face. The things he has done in my life are too many to even recall, he has saved my marriage, we were young and careless, but he took us and made us one. It went to spending many nights in my car thinking I had made the biggest mistake of my life, and just wanting to go home to, loving my life and my husband more than I ever thought possible. God taught me how to die to myself, and stop negativity. He taught me that love is an action, a decision, not just a feeling, I made a decision to love him and God opened up my eyes. Things changed before I even noticed, and now our marriage is great. When hard times come along, he has taught me how to fall back on him, and he always shows me the way. God saved my sister. He opened up so many doors and did such a great work in her life, it was a miracle right in front of my eyes. I know in my heart that she is struggling a lot now, but if she holds onto Him, he will guide her. I have seen his great love for her. He will never leave her nor forsake her. I knew for so long that He was real and wanted to have my own prayer language, and struggled and struggled trying to get it, and one night, lonely and weary, he gave me revelation, and I was filled to the full. I had got what I had asked for a long time ago, but I was too blinded to notice. His love for us is so great, and he comes and overwhelms me when I am not even expecting it. He shows me his heart, and I run after it. I fail all the time, but I’ll never quit. He is my heart, he is all I hold dear.
