The Heart of a Child

 

The world is still so blurry. She knew that there are many things to learn and see. The one thing she did not realize is what her mother did see in her. I did not believe that she was a girl up until the very minute she was born and I saw for myself. Still, when she was born, there was something about her. Her daddy was the first to hold her, embrace her. A few minutes later, when she was carefully handed to me for the first time, she made a strange growling sound, as though she just wanted to be held by him. I stared at her for days. This child that came from my womb looked different than my first. On the outside, she looked like one of those angelic looking people from the paintings of Leonardo DaVinci, which was strange enough. Her mother could see the outside difference, but still there was something on the inside I could not identify. She grew fast. Her head full of dark hair quickly turned into wavy blonde hair flowing down her back at only the age of two. She grew fast for her age, and her soul did too. Things came to her easily and naturally. She was content to play by herself, but also had a mischievous side. Deep thoughts ran through her head all the time. This was natural since this was the way she had been made, never realizing she pondered on things most adults never even come to realize. Here is one of the things I want you to know, names are of great importance. Her first name, Savannah, which means large grassy plain, was just pretty to us, and did not seem to have much significance. But, we ended up nick naming her Nana, because her brother could not pronounce her name right. Nana can have two meanings: Yaweh is gracious, and vegetables or greens, which of course represents life. Her name can also be traced back to mean “favor” or “grace.” The most significant part is her middle name, Amber, which is the color that represents the Glory of God. She is never aware of any of this since she is only four years old. A name is important. It can prophecy a person’s future, it can be a literal prophetic meaning in their life. So it was with her. She often played by herself, while her brother was at school. She would come into my room, and tell me things Jesus said. See, Jesus came to see her. Since Jesus is Lord, I guess she assumes everyone sees him and talks to him regularly, not knowing that what is happening is out of the ordinary. Jesus would even feed her french fries, how funny is that? She says he is so pretty and nice. He sits and plays with her. I know, surely the Glory of God is on her life. She was singing the song she has been into lately. “I can hear the rhythm of the Lion of the Tribe Of Judah.” Over and over she sang those words, and danced to the warring music. I watched her, and realized her dance was not of her. She was moving so gracefully and doing these strange hand motions that surely she could not come up with herself. I believe she was dancing before him, lost in a different realm, worshiping him. She, this little life, was dancing before her father, the Spirit leading and guiding her steps. Oh the Glory it did bring! I know the Glory is on her very life. What will become of her? What will she do? What is she destined for? This life is not yet consumed with the world, but of heaven. It dances with her. She is in two dimensions at once. I pray that she stays there. If we can just be quiet and listen to His rhythm, could we hear it too? Could our steps be taken over like hers? How can someone so little accomplish so much. “The way to the Kingdom is that of a little child.” Can an adult really learn such life changing lessons from them? I am constantly in search of him, and she is constantly living with him, interacting with him. Why do we not see? He is here, and he is waiting. Let’s be more like her, go to him with the heart of a little child. Lets dance with him, and get lost.

Deep Within

I do not live in this world. 

  I am a stranger to this land. 

I wait patiently for the one who comes and puts joy in my heart.

   A fire churns in my belly.

I feel the warmth on my face.

  His light is shining on me, resting on me.

He longs to be with me, embrace me.

  No deeper intimacy could a human give, only he can love like this. 

My heart is a deep pool, waves crashing to the rim and spilling over and running through me.

  Then out of my heart, his heart becomes known. 

He deeply desires to consume us all, his creation, his precious little ones. 

  Oh, there is more, there is so much more. 

More to come, more to know, more to see, more to feel, more to love. 

  His love is an unending love, it swirls everywhere, willing to come into whomever invites it. 

His eyes wonder to and fro, searching constantly for those who will welcome his embrace. 

  Do you know of this lover? 

He comes quietly, gently, when you least expect it. 

   So softly that you can miss it if you’re not careful. 

His love is beyond any love you have ever known.  

  Magical. 

He rides with the wind, blowing past your face whispering ever so softly, “Surrender your heart, and I will show you things you have never known before.” 

 His grace and his beauty is beyond measure. 

Do you know him? 

 He longs for you, calls for you, his passion for you burns in his sharp piercing eyes. 

His hands long to touch your face, and take you with him. 

 He waits to tell you of the kingdom inside you that is hidden so deep. 

Walk the mountains with you. 

 Show you this place of rest. 

This place of hiding. 

  Will you go? 

In the deepest shadows, there is light, a light that is covered. 

  When this light is let out it shines brighter than the sun. 

It has been hidden for a long time, but now is the time for it to come forth. 

  Destiny is calling, oh, who will answer this call? 

How very few answer, how very few see, now is the time, who will take this walk with me?

Reach With All Your Might

What do you carry within your heart?  Love, Hate, Jealousy, Envy, Trust, Comfort, etc….

We all carry different things.  Some of us are happy, some sad.  What are we living for?  Most people are searching for worldly things.  Fame, wealth.  But, how many of us go to bed at night with the deep empty feelings in our guts?  I used to hate that.  Now that I am not empty anymore, I am completely satisfied.  My emptiness is not filled up with  something I have created in my mind to make me feel filled with purpose, something I have to hang onto in order to believe I am here for a reason.  I am filled with certainty.  I have spent the past 8 years searching deep things.   I have went deep into places I never would have went into on my own.  My gut is filled with the REAL purpose, the only purpose.  The only love that can fill and be overfowing.  It cost a lot of time that could have been spent on education, but education means nothing to me.  I am after different things.  I am a dreamer, and I have been taken away with my dreams.  Most people will think I’m crazy, but I don’t care.  People can explain away in a heartbeat why God isn’t real.  People are caught up in logic and facts and science.  Remember Peter Pan?  Why is the heart of a child so different from the heart of an adult?  A child’s heart has not been bombarded with all our cares, all our reasons, they automatically receive and have faith just because you said so.  They cast all their cares away.  I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to live my life the way a lot of adults do.  I want to be childlike.  I couldn’t figure out why when I was a kid I would do crazy  things without a second thought, and have a blast, and now that I’m an adult, I can’t even go down a slide at Dolly’s splash country (amusement park)  without feeling my heart is gonna explode.  When I ride in the car with my husband, I’m over in the passenger seat slamming on my imaginary brakes, whenever I ”think”  we might be fixing to crash.  Does it make sense that some of us are bigger chickens now than when we were children?  Where does the faith go?  It’s in there somewhere.  When we start to search for the deeper things, the things that matter, the things that contain truth, the unseen reality, that there is a creator  that desperately desires for us to know him, we will find out that things can be quite different.  No matter what you want in life, if you really want to live, you have to put your head up in the clouds a little bit.  If you daydream about what’s up in the clouds enough, the clouds might just come down with you.  Think a little deeper, think about the silly things, think about the impossible things more, think with your heart.  Learn how to use the deep universe inside you, and you will discover there’s truth that you can draw out from within you.  Your destiny is in there.  Your God is in there, and he wants to do the impossible in you and through you.  Believe a little, trust a little, give a little, dream a little.  Don’t be so grown-up, learn to have that childlike heart.  Grab hold of your dreams, reach for them with all your might, and you will do great and mighty things.  Don’t choose to be ordinary, choose to be extraordinary.  I am simply encouraging you to think more with your heart, and to examine what’s in it.