The Heart of a Child

 

The world is still so blurry. She knew that there are many things to learn and see. The one thing she did not realize is what her mother did see in her. I did not believe that she was a girl up until the very minute she was born and I saw for myself. Still, when she was born, there was something about her. Her daddy was the first to hold her, embrace her. A few minutes later, when she was carefully handed to me for the first time, she made a strange growling sound, as though she just wanted to be held by him. I stared at her for days. This child that came from my womb looked different than my first. On the outside, she looked like one of those angelic looking people from the paintings of Leonardo DaVinci, which was strange enough. Her mother could see the outside difference, but still there was something on the inside I could not identify. She grew fast. Her head full of dark hair quickly turned into wavy blonde hair flowing down her back at only the age of two. She grew fast for her age, and her soul did too. Things came to her easily and naturally. She was content to play by herself, but also had a mischievous side. Deep thoughts ran through her head all the time. This was natural since this was the way she had been made, never realizing she pondered on things most adults never even come to realize. Here is one of the things I want you to know, names are of great importance. Her first name, Savannah, which means large grassy plain, was just pretty to us, and did not seem to have much significance. But, we ended up nick naming her Nana, because her brother could not pronounce her name right. Nana can have two meanings: Yaweh is gracious, and vegetables or greens, which of course represents life. Her name can also be traced back to mean “favor” or “grace.” The most significant part is her middle name, Amber, which is the color that represents the Glory of God. She is never aware of any of this since she is only four years old. A name is important. It can prophecy a person’s future, it can be a literal prophetic meaning in their life. So it was with her. She often played by herself, while her brother was at school. She would come into my room, and tell me things Jesus said. See, Jesus came to see her. Since Jesus is Lord, I guess she assumes everyone sees him and talks to him regularly, not knowing that what is happening is out of the ordinary. Jesus would even feed her french fries, how funny is that? She says he is so pretty and nice. He sits and plays with her. I know, surely the Glory of God is on her life. She was singing the song she has been into lately. “I can hear the rhythm of the Lion of the Tribe Of Judah.” Over and over she sang those words, and danced to the warring music. I watched her, and realized her dance was not of her. She was moving so gracefully and doing these strange hand motions that surely she could not come up with herself. I believe she was dancing before him, lost in a different realm, worshiping him. She, this little life, was dancing before her father, the Spirit leading and guiding her steps. Oh the Glory it did bring! I know the Glory is on her very life. What will become of her? What will she do? What is she destined for? This life is not yet consumed with the world, but of heaven. It dances with her. She is in two dimensions at once. I pray that she stays there. If we can just be quiet and listen to His rhythm, could we hear it too? Could our steps be taken over like hers? How can someone so little accomplish so much. “The way to the Kingdom is that of a little child.” Can an adult really learn such life changing lessons from them? I am constantly in search of him, and she is constantly living with him, interacting with him. Why do we not see? He is here, and he is waiting. Let’s be more like her, go to him with the heart of a little child. Lets dance with him, and get lost.

Happiness

Happiness is not a feeling, but a choice.  Your life is your life.  No one else is living it, but you.  We can say all we want that we are not happy because of him or her, but in reality that is a BIG lie, and if we think about it we know it.  When someone hurts you, they go on about their business without a care, and you are the one miserable driving yourself crazy.  You are not hurting anybody but yourself when you hold onto anger, hurt, unforgiveness, etc.  You CAN choose to be happy, no matter your circumstance.  If you let others control the way you feel by what they do, then you are living a life that doesn’t belong to you.  You are being held in invisible chains, in the past.  God gave us free will, and people can and will hurt you, but if you will let that go, and choose to be happy anyway, God will take the most awful things that have happened to you, and turn your life into something beautiful.  See, we have free will to mess up whatever we want, but when we hand over our free will, realizing that we don’t know what’s best for us, and give it all to the one who does, he will take it and turn it into a beautiful garden.  Jesus gave up his life on his own free will so that we may be able to do the same.  That means that no longer are we obligated to respond to things the way that we naturally would, because we are no longer in control.  If we recieve his love and goodness into our lives, we become changed.  We Know Him, and know that we are deeply loved, and we walk in that love.  Before long, we no longer live by our emotions, we live by truth, the truth always sets you free.  There is only one truth, HIM, if we seek him above anything else, the best we can, our lives become transformed into the truth.  It seems complicated, but it’s not.  You are alive, he put you together in your mother’s womb, made you the way he wanted, and gave you an eternal gift that you are free to take or reject.  If you reject it, you will always have a void, a hole in the pit of your heart, never being filled no matter how you try to fill it.  If you recieve it, and learn to have a relationship with him, learn that you are a child of the most high God, and that he has a great purpose and plan for you, know that he loves you, created you to be loved by him, and him by you, your life will become meaningful, filled beyond measure with purpose, happiness, and love.  You will be one of the few who knows TRUE happiness, and your life will be great, beyond anything you could ever imagine.  Why do we so often reject the greatest gift ever given, the one we are searching for but have been so blinded by false rules and religion we don’t even see that it is such a great gift.  We often just see boring religion, a bunch of rules.  That was not the way he wants it, it’s not about rules, it’s about your heart and your willingness to hand it over to the greatest lover in this world