I have awoke from sleep a thousand times.
I have put on my shoes a thousand times.
I have been to school a thousand times.
I have been to church a thousand times.
I have been to the store a thousand times.
I have smelled flowers a thousand times.
I have done so many things in my so few years.
But how many times have I healed the sick?
How many times have I raised the dead?
How many times have I stopped suicide?
How many times have I stopped abortion?
How many times have I been there?
How many times have I been brave enough?
Strong enough?
Loving enough?
Not nearly as much as the things I have done a thousand times.
I can get up every morning and easily say I do the right thing. I take care of my kids, I am a good wife. I am a good person, but is that all I really want?
No, I won’t settle for that. That’s a life of mediocrity. Yes I do do things I should, but what about the things I am not doing? The things that require effort, integrity, courage?
Do those things not matter? We are in a lost dying world, how can we settle? We go day after day focusing on ourselves, when there is a whole other battle to fight.
I declare in my lifetime, I will be all that I was made to be.
I will move mountains.
I will head the sick.
I will raise the dead.
I will rise up and be victorious.
I will recieve and walk in my full inheritance that has already been given to me.
These things I will also do…..a thousand times.
Passion. What is it? How much does it matter? Does your passion have enough drive? My passion is truth. I believe that what I believe is the truth. I believe it wholeheartedly. Whenever I get the chance to share with someone the truth, nothing else matters. I am totally and completely absorbed into the conversation. There are not many who have heard the things I tell. Most people, around here anyway, never think outside the box. I love the movie Braveheart, Last of the Mohicans, Amazing Grace, etc. I never put much thought in it as to why I loved those kinds of movies so much. It’s the passion in them. Where that sort of passion is, my heart is. I’ve always believed that the impossible exists, I still do, with all my heart. When I was a kid, even though I was never shown the things I know now, I was looking for them. There was a fire burning in my heart back then, even though I didn’t have a clue what it was all about. I have been constantly searching, looking for something impossible, my whole life. Do we all do that? Is that what life is? The people that give up and stop searching make it clear to me that a life with out passion, a life without hope, is a life not worth living. Why did Jesus say so many times, “if you only believe”? Where has belief gone? Why does it seem to get lost? We have riches and beauty at our fingertips, and we do not believe. He is life, he is everthing, but we do not believe. Why? Why is it so impossible to just believe? Have you ever thought about the things he has said? A lot of the things he says is impossible. Deep down do we believe it is just a story book? Why do we read the words as if they are no big deal? See, I realized that we are to take him literally. He meant what he said. Men mess everything up. We will only give God so much credit and then stop. He is my passion. Him and his truth, He is the truth. Seek ye first the kingdom of God…that’s all it takes. If we were to seek him above all else, above all else, all the other things would be added to us. Seems pretty simple, but it’s not. We have been trapped in this flesh for so long, it seems impossible to get out. We don’t know what are spirit man is capable of. My passion, burns bright inside me, but it seems that it gets harder to move on on the outside. Why? It sure is a fight, and I know without a doubt that it’s worth it. and I believe the impossible, that I will get to that place one day. My goal is to press on, keep on fighting, keep on believing, keep that passion burning brightly, that I may see the God’s Glory manifested in my life. We were made to believe the impossible. 